ranting / juggling some thoughts and things
once you begin to make peace with death, impermanence, and ultimately your human ego,
all those silly, arbitrary, illusory things become just that: silly, arbitrary, and illusory.
money, success, self-image, and the like… it’s all just illusory shit that you musn’t sweat over. these things are there because you need them to hold your own within this massive societal, cultural body. that’s just the way things are.
i lose my patience when juggling around these thoughts, and all i can think sometimes, especially directed toward certain mindsets, is “stop being a fuckin crybaby and deal with it! ARG!” the aggressive energy i get mostly comes from personal experience with those who have certain cultural/economic privileges.
i’ve known many people who fit the bill perfectly - people who fit most of or all of the following labels: white, male, cis, straight, able-bodied, and upper middle class. many of these people are very compassionate and intelligent, capable of making positive change in the world, especially given their cultural privilege/power. but they let their minds get ahead of them. they are afraid, they are depressed. things like money, capitalism, of the judgments of others, the idea of death and impermanence - so many things. they give into negativity. they are chronic complainers. they want things, they want success, they want recognition.
as i’ve made some great progress on my spiritual path, i’ve unlearned many arbitrary things. i see how we are driven unconsciously silly by the ego. many people have too many things to be thankful for! but because of their mental dispositions, they unconsciously create their own suffering. if these privileged people could only see this, they might overcome it, and they could really nourish their good traits. i’m currently having this transformation happen to myself. i’ve stopped indulging such anxieties, the insanity, and i’ve never felt more like myself. i feel so light and enthusiastic all the time. i feel love!
someone i know has this dilemma down to a T. you see, he is a visionary type, and he truly understands a lot of things, and he truly, truly desires to see positive change in the world. if he was properly nourished, mentally, emotionally, spiritually even, i think he could do some amazing things. but he is too preoccupied with illusion and consequent suffering, as it is. siiiiiigh. the human state is fucking gosh wtf man.
4:38 pm • 21 September 2014 • 1 note
Science has proven that:
- Humans have auras
- Humans have organs that sense energy
- We inherit memories from our anscestors
- Meditation repairs telomeres in DNA, which slows the process of…
i have absolutely no scientific background whatsoever, but i do have a lot of respect for the field of science. i am not an academic. here i only present a thought based off my own experiences.
let me state what i see here, as a basis for my thinking. here, i see a clash of ideas and perception. i see the immediate dismissal of new ideas and possibilities that many deem incompatible with old models of thinking.
i will also say that i have also experienced paranormal phenomena, done research regarding it, and met many intelligent, sane people who have experienced inexplicable paranormal occurrences as well.
so i ask, what are the limits of human perception? take this into account: we have come to theorize that there is a lot going on that we cannot see with our five senses. A LOT! we create facts based on empirical data, and dismiss ideas which we deem incompatible with these facts, but the perceptive capacity with which the data was initially gathered was limited. on that basis, who are we to say that these “paranormal” experiences are not true, that they are simply steeped in subconsciousness, imagination, etc? perhaps these experiences occur outside of what most of us are ABLE to see. perhaps people who experience paranormal phenomena simply possess something, some mechanism or what will you, in their being that the majority of others do not possess. so who are you to say that they are wrong? if you are concerned with truth, you must keep in mind that your consciousness is quite limited - as such, you must always remain open to every presented possibility.
1:58 pm • 21 September 2014 • 256,542 notes
prince of the universe
in sandy curls
moss tint eyes
a dimpled smile
soft words linger
as his stardust soul
and he wanders
the wondrous world
1:03 pm • 21 September 2014 • 2 notes
thoughts on poverty and homelessness
recently i have found myself in the friendly presence of people whose financial state is much, much poorer than mine. these interactions are mostly downtown. i have two young friends, under 25, who have many problems, particularly those stemming from family and heavy mental…
i think there are a lot of ideas we have, here in north america (ideas on how to raise kids, ideas on how the education system should go, as loose examples), that are quite backward in many ways, and not beneficial at all to a good chunk of the population. i can’t really make a numerical estimation, as it’d be based only off my own little pool of perception, but it truly makes sense to me to say that many aspects of our culture and society completely fail to serve a preeetty significant portion of the population. just look at that alarming statistic regarding mental health - i mean, i’ve heard many, many times that 1 in 5 people in the developed world are said to have major mental health issues. 1 in 5! jesus.
10:44 am • 20 September 2014 • 9 notes
thoughts on poverty and homelessness
recently i have found myself in the friendly presence of people whose financial state is much, much poorer than mine. these interactions are mostly downtown. i have two young friends, under 25, who have many problems, particularly those stemming from family and heavy mental illness, and they live in shelters. i go see them downtown, see how they’re doing, and occasionally we run into adventures with other frequent downtowners, some of them homeless, some of them in rough situations, some of them simply eccentric meanderers.
these experiences have really challenged my views on things. i have been thinking about the values we hold as a collective body. we place blind importance on competence and success, and seemingly not enough on empathy, loyalty, and simply looking out for one another. i’m having a bit of a cultural awakening, and am developing a lot of contempt and disgust for the way things are in north american society.
i myself have been the subject of cultural bullshit - i come from a strong native american background, both parents being of mixed parentage and having grown up on reserves. as such, the stories preceding my birth have been of generations of massive, engrained socioeconomic negativity - generations of poverty and racism.
i see these same circumstances in these two friends of mine, though they are both white, so the racist component is negated. these are two people who, along with their ancestors, have failed to measure up to the ideals forced upon them, and have faltered in their individual development as a consequence. they live dangerous, hard lives, and do not receive the help that they inherently deserve.
it makes me angry. it disgusts me. i am angry at the massive idea of western society, of capitalism, of the white race, at that piece of shit mantra i’ve heard so often: “every man for himself”.
in my heart and mind, this screaming spirit has surfaced, and it says: “TAKE YOUR SHIT and shove it STRAIGHT BACK UP YOUR ASS”
and at who do i direct this? i guess toward these ideas, these cultural entities, these 21st century circumstances.
(as a side note, with regards to my spiritual path, these happenings also pose a good, hearty challenge of mindfulness in the face of these aggressive energies accumulating within. for that i am thankful and willing to rise to the challenge)
any who…. i’ve said what’s on my mind.
i also see that, as i slowly approach the age of twenty, i get hungrier and hungrier for new ideas, new perspectives, new experiences- the whole shizzam. i suppose such is the plight of the youngin’. it’s really quite beautiful.
thanks for listening! peace and love!
2:24 pm • 19 September 2014 • 9 notes
I don’t wanna die because death be some trippy shit yo. But I wanna die cuz DEATH BE SOME TRIPPY SHIT YO
Last night, after Neutral Milk Hotel (which by the way was fantastic!), I sat with the Prince of the Universe, and we spent a good while speculating mainly about consciousness and the ego and all that good stuff. We marveled at the paradoxes within our minds created by theoretical layers of the ego. FUN! Then our friend came at around 2 or 3 and we spent the rest of the night giggling about the Andy Warhol banana and McChickens (yes McChickens)! Even more FUN!
4:53 pm • 14 September 2014 • 1 note
Zen is a branch of Mahayana Buddhism closely identified with Japan although it is practiced all over the world. Zen stresses personal attainment of enlightenment and does not rely upon the ancient texts. Zen was heavily influenced by Chinese Taoism and reflects the minimalist Japanese aesthetic.
12:39 pm • 14 September 2014 • 79 notes
He told me that he could look at anyone’s face, and tell them exactly what they need in life. I asked him to give me a try. He studied my face, looked up at the sky for a few seconds, then said: “You don’t need anything.”
2:28 pm • 10 September 2014 • 8,736 notes
“The mind wants you to do something to be free.
But you are already free, not as a person but as the presence, the intuition-I am. Mind sets up one trip after another, apparently in search of the real.
It is saying: you are ever so near the goal, only strive a little harder, a while longer… soon, you will come to the seek.
But the one who is Self-aware knows: All this is nonsense. I am here.
What need I do to be what I already am?”
— Mooji (via wickedbabylon)
11:34 am • 8 September 2014 • 120 notes
thoughts had while on 4-AcO-DMT
I theorize on the nature of my being, of all beings, of nature, the universe, of reality. I am, we are, everything is - a gathering of elements held together, sustained, by laws - laws of the Universe. Natural mathematics. Sacred geometry. Whatever name you may give it. In other words, I am God, everything is God, all is one.
This substance, I feel, forces my third eye open. For a time I can perceive the unity of all things. My ego is not dead - I know it will not die, not as long as I am in this earthly state of consciousness, as I have been taught. But my divine self is no longer dormant. It is dominant while I am under the influence. My ego, normally dominant, is now a simple mechanism that I know exists simply to ground me to this body, to this plane of existence, and it is privy to the understanding and essence of my divine self. The ego-steeped discomfort or contempt I have for certain things or people has been realized for what it is and I do not identify with these delusions. I know that everything is pure and perfect, but the ego insists otherwise. I have pure love for all things.
Once again a psychedelic substance has shown me what I am looking for, as if the blindfold has fallen off for a time. My task is to sustain this in a sober state, to continue the tough process of unlearning lies in order to see.
11:30 am • 8 September 2014 • 1 note
past life speculations, pt 1
many months ago i was bored and had this itching curiosity about a recent past life, so i attempted a visualization. i may have half-assed it. i’m not sure. my psychic abilities are minimal - average i’d say - so i can’t be entirely sure as to what i may have seen. i am a curious person and i enjoy connecting the dots, so to speak. anyway, here i interpret my murky, unclear vision with mostly mental intuition and theory.
after some tricky meditation and the beginning process of the visualization i saw two figures from the mid-torso up, as if posing for a painting or a statuette. one was an adult and the other was a baby. the adult was a woman. the two immediately struck me as Mary and Jesus, and they appeared as figures in an old painting, as if in a byzantine or medieval style. Mary was the focal point, the true essence of the vision.
i think i may have searched for God or Oneness in a past life through Christian means. perhaps i was a nun or a priest, or at least extremely devoted. and perhaps i got close to what i sought, hence my desire to seek in this life. i feel that my adamant devotion led me to almost completely abstain from pleasures and abundance - creating what i perceive to be a prone-ness to chakra imbalances, mostly the first four, that i continually struggle with in this life. i am thankful that i have the capacity to be at least conscious of this.
concerning the (perhaps) karmic chakra imbalances i speak of, there are some major problems i have been faced with in this life: the first, i was obese for the majority of my childhood, up until my early teens, having had an addiction to junk food - this greatly effected my quality of life, emotionally and physically; secondly, i have suffered from intense social anxiety and depression, and have been suicidal for long periods of time; and lastly, between the ages of 18 and 19 i had stint of promiscuity and somewhat heavy drug and alcohol use, and created for myself a lot of anxiety surrounding pregnancy and STDs (i got out safe in both regards, thankfully).
all my major, dangerous cravings have been fed and (mostly) tamed, and my suffering realized as delusion. i strive to meditate or inquire into myself with the best of my ability to see where the negativity is steeped, in attempt to realize and kill it. it’s an ongoing process and my progress is immense and definite, and i will never regress. i have realized the power of the mutable, evolving nature of consciousness, and i am thankful. my consciousness is my greatest tool on the path, the way!
4:16 pm • 7 September 2014